During our stay at Bluebell, everyone was there when we needed them and couldn't do enough for us.It was the same after he had passed too. Two of the nurses bathed Ethan and dressed him in the clothes i had chosen for him to be in. At this time i couldn't bare to do it myself so they helped me and Matt. We were then taken to the Forget Me Not apartment where we were able to stay near Ethan in a specially prepared room. I held him in my arms for three hours after he had passed because i couldn't bare to let him go. But at the point that i did i knew it had to be the last time i held him. Although he was only in the room next door i wanted to remember him as he was. We stayed in the apartment for two days even though we had Ethan taken to the funeral directors. I found it difficult him being in the next room. Part of me just wanted to walk into that room and hold him and it was too much for me. But at the same time we weren't ready to go home. When it was time to go i found it really difficult. Everyone at Bluebell were amazing. They made us feel at home and gave us chance to b a family in a safe comforting place. We had people around us supporting us when we needed it was like being in a safe bubble. Going home i cried all the way home. Not just because i had lost my baby, but because i was afraid of leaving what had been a haven to me and Matt.